I am fat, and it’s all your fault.

28 October 2009 at 11:51 am (*Sigh*, Journal?, Musings..., Random thoughts, Women/Girls)

When every happenstance seems mundane and ordinary, when you disappear, and they all slowly walk away, and all of it threatens to push me over the edge, into vast nothingness, I try and focus on my breathing. Inhale, exhale: over and over again, until the need to regulate it ceases, until I can focus on nothing but me, alone, safe, and warm, still alive and breathing. I focus on the smiles and laughter sequestered by the defense mechanisms honed by me and by you, by us all: romantic comedies/ action movies, popcorn, Coke with lots of ice and copious amounts of chocolate ice cream.

6 Comments

  1. Purely_Narcotic said,

    28 October 2009 at 1:15 pm

    Kapalbhati yoga happening?!

    Reply

  2. J' said,

    4 November 2009 at 1:00 am

    Yay!
    I am not the only one!

    Reply

  3. G said,

    14 November 2009 at 12:41 pm

    I found you on PurelyNarcotic’s blogroll, of course.

    I love the title of this post :)

    -G

    P.S. Are you not updating Boys Are Useless anymore? But but but, they are!

    Reply

    • Sirop said,

      16 November 2009 at 8:27 am

      Welcome G, and Thank you!

      I am hardly updating this blog…! Will get to boysareuseless asap. Do send in your contributions ;)

      Reply

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